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Whippy

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So I'm back, more or less. Still got a lot of things I need to fix in my life, but I'll be working on those. Never went to a hospital, although I really felt like I was losing my mind that night (yay). I've come to realize that the net behavior had replaced what I think of as "normal human behavior" in other people. Some people just love to let you know all the supposed best details of their life whether it's real or fiction. Having no life, of course I'm going to feel like shit.  Spending too much time on the net, the people I surround myself with kind of "become" reality, and that reality sucks sometimes. Perscription : stop talking to such people and rebuild life.

I used to think talking to people that share my some of my fetishes would be great, but it's not. It's actually worse in some ways. Talking with an online friend that was more or less normal reminded me of when I used to have friends IRL. It was a good feeling. Emotional stability and a healthy personality  are like extremely important compared to wanking material buddies. I wish I would have put those qualities first when I started this (being a furry artist) . But you know, it's easy to want acceptance for something you feel ashamed of or afraid to admit to "normal" people. Wanting that acceptance....can drive a guy to some very lonely and crazy places. I used to think my fetishes make me unlikable...or too wierd..or crazy etc.

It's funny now, because  while everybody was busy building an identity based on what they poke their pork into, I was just busy just liking whatever happened to come from my imagination. Sound familiar? Oh snap! Must be a furry!  Yeah, that likely means I'm like a half crazed weasel when it comes to sex lol!  No, that doesn't mean I screw everything in sight. Prostitutes are gross and demeaning ....won't touch that. Guys...ehhh...very picky. Girls, a lot less picky. I read something about "eastern" sexuality once where sexual acts were just something you do, and didn't define you as a person. Nice idea huh?

So, yes, I miss having a normal life. Gonna try to get some semblance of it back. Maybe put less distance between what I want and what is.
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Added: 6 years, 10 months ago
 
AndyBunneh
6 years, 10 months ago
*huggles you tight* Welcome back :3
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
*squeezes back* Thanks bunny ^.^
Tweaker
6 years, 10 months ago
Yeah, once you explained to me what was really getting you down things started to make sense. A lot of my friends are from other online communities and tend to have more "tame" interests, so I think it's easier for me to relate to them as a result. Meeting local people or even just doing something as simple as involving yourself in another community with more general people and general interests can definitely help you get that perspective back.

It'd also definitely help if you ended up getting the day job you wanted, since you'll have plenty to people to talk to and a place to go during the day. :) Give it a shot! I'm sure you'll enjoy it. It sounded like you had fun the last time you did a simple little job like that, plus it'll put some extra money in your pocket to buy nice things with! Total win-win. :D
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
" Meeting local people or even just doing something as simple as involving yourself in another community with more general people and general interests can definitely help you get that perspective back.

Possibly, yeah...at least that's what I'm hoping. I'll give other things "out there" a try. Staying here all the time is killing me slowly 9_9

If I go for getting another job, I'm gonna make damn sure I actually like the people at that place first. Something simple is nice, it'd be less pressure, and hopefully enough of a challenge.  Nothing like socializing + money. Wooo!
kenji321
6 years, 10 months ago
I say that's the best plan of action.

PS: I don't like scat but I still like your style and you seem like a good person to me.
Hippiemouse
6 years, 10 months ago
Glad to hear from ya...was really worried till
HeavyheartHare
HeavyheartHare
told me he talked to ya a few nights ago.
Very glad to know you are feeling better.
As for normal life...what is normal?
There is no true definition of a normal life.
Please dont let such trivial things get you so down...i dont like it when anyone is sad...especially someone groovy like you
fluffdance
6 years, 10 months ago
<nodnods>  You have my support, even if it's from a distance.  :-)
mousehwolf
6 years, 10 months ago
I'm really glad to hear you've discovered some things  =D

I wish I could have been around to talk more often...Next time I see ya around, I'll be sure and throw ya a holler  :)

*hugs tight*
Teko
6 years, 10 months ago
*hugs* I'm glad you're back.
JeffyCottonbun
6 years, 10 months ago
*huggles the looq bunn* <3
Lekko
6 years, 10 months ago
Sounds like a good plan.  Should work out pretty well for you.  <3
caramelthecalf
6 years, 10 months ago
I really liked the way you put this. It gives me plenty to think about.
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
^.^ Heh, thanks Steve! It's quite a tricky business...for sure! All things certainly aren't equal.
DaddyDuckyBE
6 years, 10 months ago
Did you know that the whole noun/adjective-for-person-defined-by-sexuality thing really gives shit to all shemales/herms/transsexuals on F-list? Nobody knows what stuff like gay or straight really means with them. And still the F-list crew refuse to do anything about it because it's oh-so-much more convenient to define a person by their sexuality rather than just let them have orientation labels such as into males or into females (defined simply by what somebody is into, not what they are themselves) to choose from. Almost as confusing as F-list insisting to use "gender" for what's actually sex.

On a similar note: I've heard on an isolate occasion that the makers of F-list are debating to introduce orientation labels specific to cublovers. Unfortunately, the only person I heard it from told it to me as part of trolling me for "not being into adult guys" (after all, if you're into boycubs, you must also be into guys, she argued) and for allegedly not understanding the concept of pansexual (I use it for any orientation or combination of orientations not listed, she insisted that it's supposed to mean omnivore). After insulting me for maybe 10 minutes, she blocked me for not agreeing with her.
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
Huh! I never thought of that. But I know that trying to describe a herm usually gives me hell because of the gender thing. I usually end up just saying "it" in place of "he" or "she". Hehe!! It's interesting that F-List is running into this problem, because it's  kind of built into the very way we (westerners) think about sexuality + gender.  It would be kinda cool to have a list of "what you're into" on a graph of sorts. Male, female, bondage, balloons, whatever.  Or maybe one special section for actual living things, then another for inanimate objects. Most of F-list seems to be about what you're into anyway, which should lend itself more to experimentation and having fun rather than the whole "gay/bi/str8/pan/other" thing.

You're right though, gender and sexual things ought to be seperate. The whole sexual acts = identity thing is a real mess! LOL...you remember the dick = gay commnent I'm sure ^.^  Damn....I really need to do a comic about this....

That's pretty halarious about that girl. All she was doing was shoving everything into the gay/str8 catagories based on the sex of the person. Oops, too bad reality doesn't work so simply! I use pansexual also, because nothing else completely fits. Isn't an Omnivore somebody who eats anything? :) lol!! So if I eat a male I'm gay, if I eat a pig I'm a zoosexual, and if I eat a woman I'm str8! Woooo!!
DaddyDuckyBE
6 years, 10 months ago
My take on it:

Sex = What your body is like
Gender = Your behavior (aka, "gender role")
Sexuality/orientation = What bodies you're into (males, females, boycubs, girlcubs...)

Most of the time, this whole "identity" stuff just stems from the fact that historically, Westerners have never been able to tell the three apart.

As for shemales and pronouns, some people have been creative in the past and used stuff like "shi", "hir", etc. But increasingly people have it in their F-list profile that they absolutely hate these "non-words" and wanna go just by gender role. I didn't get as far as stating it as aggressively as that, but just using "she" is convenient for me. After all, if it was up to me, all females would be shemales.

"Omnivore" doesn't necessarily relate to vore. In a sexual context, it can also be used for "will mate with anything with a pulse". That was her definition of pansexual that she was trying to cram down my throat.
Brexxie
6 years, 10 months ago
well im glad your ok and WB, btw i love your icon is that one of the "Bellflower Bunnies?"
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
thank you. Yes, my icon is from Bellflower Bunnies. It's from Season 3, the episode is called "Un phare dans La foret". It's quite sad in the beginning, very emotional.
DaddyDuckyBE
6 years, 10 months ago
Sad? What your BF bunny avatar has in his face can be interpreted as at least two different things! ;)
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
Yes ^^ I said the episode was sad, not the avatar *giggles*. I like to see it as just coming out of depair. Seeing something he didn't see before.
Brexxie
6 years, 10 months ago
i didnt know that there was a series i only knew of a educational film im going to have to look that up.  thanks for the Info
Whippy
6 years, 10 months ago
Oh? o_o I had no idea they made Bellflower Bunnies Educational videos.
I know that Bellflower Bunnies is based on a series of children's books called "Beechwood Bunny Tales" though.

http://bellflower.wikia.com/wiki/The_Bellflower_Bunnies
I have nearly all the eps of it, it's a great little series ^^
The Bellflower Bunnies - Room To Move
Brexxie
6 years, 10 months ago
that one you linked is the DVD my parents have

"Room to move"
MrSOCKS
6 years, 10 months ago
Praise God I can read this journal on the 2nd of January.
How magnificent that you've solved this riddle, and gotten your head back on straight.
Go get em, tiger!
Christaphorac
6 years, 10 months ago
*snugs a bunny* Whew! Glad you're OK, praise gawd. |3
 You still wanna chat on AIM? 'Cuz I'm on most evenings EST as usual. ^^
*snugs a second time*
Christaphorac
6 years, 10 months ago
  And I really dig that Eastern notion of sexuality. Seems like in some ways the non-westerners have a more realistic attitude to certain subjects than we do.
CLCoon
6 years, 10 months ago
good to see your okay for now looq hunny bunny. <3 *huggles*
Goldy
6 years, 10 months ago
Glad to see you again :3 *hugs*
Slimywolf
6 years, 10 months ago
I'm happy that you're back again.  It is rather tough trying to balance your social life while engaging in some personal activities online, but it's not impossible.  You'll just have to make some compromises and set your priorities straight.  I understand that the Internet and the online communities within can be very addictive, but spending too much of your life online can be draining in many aspects.
I hope you'll be able to readjust to the real world and also produce more of your art whenever you can.
Remember, you only get one chance at life, so go out there!  Explore, make friends, get employed, engage in your passions, become an activist, find that someone special, and above all: keep your wits about you.  Building your self-esteem and maintaining it are more important than seeking reassurance by conforming to any particular group both online and in reality.  (; ))
SpaceCat
6 years, 10 months ago
sounds like your on the right track. A lot of us have been to that nasty place where real life has taken a back seat to internet fantasy. it's not fun but realizing what's important is a critical growing process that will lead to better days.
Salmy
6 years, 10 months ago
Good to have you back, Looq :)

And well, you always have the 'middle option', which is be yourself with those with whom you know you can be 100% yourself, and be just 80 or 90% yourself with the rest. Having fetishes is good and all, but rubbing them on people's faces all the time is not nice, cuz nobody likes to have the rest's rubbed on theirs. I mean, they can even know about them, but the key is to not let them be the center of your life, and you'll be fine!

Personally, I don't share some of your most radical fetishes, but that doesn't keep me from watching you and liking your art a lot in general :)
MichaelJBear
6 years, 10 months ago
I'm really happy to see you back Looq... I'm deeply sorry if I wasn't available these days... I had some problem with my PC and it was impossible for me to be there... but I'm back online happily...

I'm glad to see that your going better... I see that Tweaker has given you really good advice... there good base to start on Looq *hug*
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