Oh come on, we all spelled it like that once.
I turn 29 today.
One year shy of 30, I have found myself looking back constantly on how much I've grown and how much my life has been a maniacal rollercoaster with it's ups and downs. As I do, I cling to the hopeful truth of what I was once told.
'Don't worry, your thirties will be better than your twenties...which were better than your teens."
I hope so. It's been pretty rough at times these last nine years. Here are my hopes for the coming year and coming decade:
I hope I can live long enough to find out and maybe really solidify what I'm here to do outside be the loving companion to my friends and family.
I hope to do more reviewing and more discussion of what makes things great in life rather than whine and rowl about what makes things crap in life.
I intend to get my life more and more on a level keel again.
I eventually want to stop smoking again, this time for good. No promises there, however.
I want to remember how to stop fearing going to sleep because the military told me that being asleep only makes you more vulnerable to someone taking pride in inflicting hurt on you in one fashion or another.
I want to learn to play my bass guitar and to be better at it than I thought I would be.
I want to challenge my views. Not all at once, however.
I would like to go to Disneyland with Alfie. Just us two. Someday.
I would like to show how possible it is to be quietly gay and for that to be okay with those who think that being proud means screaming it in everyone else's face, whether the everyone else wanted them to or not.
Actually, the same thing goes for furriness, too.
I will try to stop being a condescending prick at times. That one'll be rough.
Finally...I continue to hope and hope and hope that all of this effort and toil isn't for nothing. That when I end (hopefully not for a good long while) I'll be rewarded in an afterlife of one fashion or another with anything and everything I could ever hope for, no matter the limit of possibility.
Because I really want to blow my foxy to pieces and have it be fun. :3
Back to the main event.
7 years, 6 months ago
24 Dec 2011 10:42 CET