So this friend online who I have known for a few months, might no longer be my friend. We have never fought or argued before but man... he has obviously blocked me and I no longer see him on my PSN so that is even more of a bad sign.
Just he has been depressed for I dunno what reason, he says no reason and I have tried to make him feel better. I tell him that he should find something to make him laugh or talk to others. He is one of those that wants to be alone when depressed, which I never found to be good. When someone is depressed and alone they only make themselves more depressed and alone and dwell on such thoughts. Feel it is best to have someone to talk to, to be an outlet and get it out and feel a bit better in the long run.
Anyway I was talking about a game, he is game spoiler sensitive such as I am, but I am not THAT bad. I mean I hate being told anything about a game and consider it spoiler in which most wouldn't consider it spoiler but man... he is just bad with that. Any one little thing sets him off... I told him things about a game he didn't already know and all I said was what some reviews have said, saying the story was not as good, the mechanics are improved and well there are side things to do which he already knew.
Just really... yeesh. And even though I know he gets upset when someone pokes at that, saying things that are obviously fake or things that are obvious about a game, like I had said "in Uncharted 3 you shoot bad guys so there, bet you don't wanna play that now either" and yeah, that upset him and he blocked me I am sure, even though it is obvious that is what happens.
So yeah he was all to me "Dunno why you keep talking about it. When I'm spoiled.. I dont play the game, period." It seems a bit extreme really... sigh.
Either way though, I am now all utterly depressed about this, I dunno if he will add me back and all that once he has gotten out of this mood but really... sigh, it is depressing. He was the one guy I talked video games about. I have no one else who is like him, most I know aren't THAT into video games. How they don't talk about deals and savings and talk in-depth about a game and other sort. Just feels like it is all over... I came off as upset to him because it was upsetting how he was being about all this but now... I am depressed in return and feel bad, but at the same time don't wanna say sorry because he was rather overboard as well.
Anyway I dunno... I don't normally make journals like this, it probably won't stay. He was one of my closer friends I'd like to think. How I only seem to talk to 2 friends everyday all the time, how talk comes easy between us. Everyone else I know, not really. They are quiet and don't say anything, but him and another, oh it is so easy to talk about things and they actually talk back! Most I have on IM we only talk for awhile then hardly ever again... or they don't talk back, expect me to do all the talking, ya know? I am sure you all know and have people like that. But I guess because lack of chemistry? I dunno... meh.
So yeah... just letting that out. I don't know if he is gonna talk to me again but I have no way to contact him. I do, on this forum site, but he has probably took the measure to block me from there or won't bother to read what I said so... meh. I guess all I can do is wait... but if it takes too long, I will be over him by then and probably not wanna talk to him anymore.
6 years, 9 months ago
23 Nov 2011 03:31 CET