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Raukue

Friendship Over? Sigh.

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So this friend online who I have known for a few months, might no longer be my friend. We have never fought or argued before but man... he has obviously blocked me and I no longer see him on my PSN so that is even more of a bad sign.

Just he has been depressed for I dunno what reason, he says no reason and I have tried to make him feel better. I tell him that he should find something to make him laugh or talk to others. He is one of those that wants to be alone when depressed, which I never found to be good. When someone is depressed and alone they only make themselves more depressed and alone and dwell on such thoughts. Feel it is best to have someone to talk to, to be an outlet and get it out and feel a bit better in the long run.

Anyway I was talking about a game, he is game spoiler sensitive such as I am, but I am not THAT bad. I mean I hate being told anything about a game and consider it spoiler in which most wouldn't consider it spoiler but man... he is just bad with that. Any one little thing sets him off... I told him things about a game he didn't already know and all I said was what some reviews have said, saying the story was not as good, the mechanics are improved and well there are side things to do which he already knew.

Just really... yeesh. And even though I know he gets upset when someone pokes at that, saying things that are obviously fake or things that are obvious about a game, like I had said "in Uncharted 3 you shoot bad guys so there, bet you don't wanna play that now either" and yeah, that upset him and he blocked me I am sure, even though it is obvious that is what happens.

So yeah he was all to me "Dunno why you keep talking about it. When I'm spoiled.. I dont play the game, period." It seems a bit extreme really... sigh.

Either way though, I am now all utterly depressed about this, I dunno if he will add me back and all that once he has gotten out of this mood but really... sigh, it is depressing. He was the one guy I talked video games about. I have no one else who is like him, most I know aren't THAT into video games. How they don't talk about deals and savings and talk in-depth about a game and other sort. Just feels like it is all over... I came off as upset to him because it was upsetting how he was being about all this but now... I am depressed in return and feel bad, but at the same time don't wanna say sorry because he was rather overboard as well.

Anyway I dunno... I don't normally make journals like this, it probably won't stay. He was one of my closer friends I'd like to think. How I only seem to talk to 2 friends everyday all the time, how talk comes easy between us. Everyone else I know, not really. They are quiet and don't say anything, but him and another, oh it is so easy to talk about things and they actually talk back! Most I have on IM we only talk for awhile then hardly ever again... or they don't talk back, expect me to do all the talking, ya know? I am sure you all know and have people like that. But I guess because lack of chemistry? I dunno... meh.

So yeah... just letting that out. I don't know if he is gonna talk to me again but I have no way to contact him. I do, on this forum site, but he has probably took the measure to block me from there or won't bother to read what I said so... meh. I guess all I can do is wait... but if it takes too long, I will be over him by then and probably not wanna talk to him anymore.
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Added: 6 years, 9 months ago
 
cooncub
6 years, 9 months ago
Aw. Sorry to hear this, it saddens me hearing about that. I'm like he is and shut people out when really depessed. Its just something some of us do. I'm sure when he feels better he will come around you again and talk to you. All you can do is wait and hope he is alright. Hugs to you, little one
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
Yeah I guess... just I feel bad and all. I mean I know how he feels about all that yet... yeah. But man it sucks when I have no one else to talk to about those kinda things. I wasn't even spoiling and told him things I have told him before so he already knew. All he had to do was say to stop, but the way he said things, it was like he was quick to blame me and say it is my fault for him now not wanting to play... sigh.

Just dunno if he is gonna talk to me ever again now. When someone blocks and even deletes/blocks on like PSN or elsewhere, just feels like a bad sign.
cooncub
6 years, 9 months ago
Aw, I feel sorry for you, I hope you still have friends that live near you that you can talk to. Its hard and I understand how you feel. I hope he does maybe read your little shout and comes back. Even your cute little icon shows that your sad.
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
I see he even went so far as to un-friend me on the forums... I mean I dunno if he is taking measured to not talk to me at all and will add me all back later... but to remove me from PSN, Steam, and those forums which we first met... yeah.
NonnyFox
6 years, 9 months ago
In my opinion lack of chemistry can be one of the reasons why a clicking doesn't happen between two people. It can even be the reason why two people do click.

As for game sales, that is one of the reasons I like having a Steam account. I have taken advantage of a couple of their midweek madness sales and a few of their daily deal sales. It is great to buy a game that used to cost $49.99 when it first came out years ago for $2.50 ^ ^

I've had a couple of net friends close the door on me too. Two of them did that earlier this year.


As one who goes through depression himself I can vouch for what Cooncub said. Some do handle it by wanting to be alone to deal with it, it doesn't mean that they are considering ending it all. With others it's because they don't want to bring anyone else down while they're in a low mood.
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
Well he removed me from everywhere, Steam, the site we first met on and PSN and all that... I mean to go that far? Usually most who have blocked me out forget to delete from other places like that.

And yeah, though not all games are on Steam... like PS3 only games of course. And well those who do not have a good PC, such as myself.

But yeah him and I talked a lot, mostly about games. It was easy to get a convo going... not easy to find.
cooncub
6 years, 9 months ago
I like being by myself when I get depressed, now drawing seems to help me live again. I hope that you don't get dragged down with him in this. You just need to find others now and if he comes back just beware that this can happen again. Hugs again to you.
Bledar
6 years, 9 months ago
For some people talking just makes it worse. The best you can do is let them know they can talk to you if they want, but don't try and force them or nag them. Anyway, he may contact you again once he calms down. Just wait a while. :)
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
Maybe... can only hope.
PlatinumPen
6 years, 9 months ago
I got ya back just drop me a line if ya need a friend to talk to and I'll be willing to talk either here through PMs or through Skype if you have it. You're a cool enough guy to put Skyrim down for a while to chat with.
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
Hmm heh. Just tough to find the right kind of person to talk about games. I know those who talk games but like not on the same level as me. Then how they might have slip of the tongue and give spoilers and eh yeah... hmm. I dunno, hard to say. But heh I mean you are all glued to Skyrim, like so many are, like there is some sort of time limit on the game before it explodes... then is fine, I shouldn't stop you. I usually set game time for myself, usually around midnight on for about 3-4 hours a day usually, no matter how much I want to play a game. Guess part of that is due to lack of privacy, things get too loud and active around here for me to enjoy playing games so I have to wait till everyone goes to sleep so I get some quiet.
PlatinumPen
6 years, 9 months ago
First of all I have enough respect for you that I would both gladly and willingly shut off Skyrim to give you a chat. Second when talking about a game or anime I always check if I would give any spoilers (further than what's been hinted at in ads, releases, etc.) or if people want me to go into more detail I ask them if they mind a small spoiler. If they do I will say sorry I could spoil it for you or if they don't mind I minimize what I tell them.

Besides helping a cool dude like you is worth getting off Skyrim (I'm a Khajiit sniper-style if ya was wondering)
thelapisfox
6 years, 9 months ago
Don't feel too bad, things like this happens. I've lost count of how may friend I've had for years who just decide to either leave the internet completely or flat out won't talk to me anymore. I currently only have 1 -real- friend left online but even we don't talk much anymore. If it's just a matter of the depression, then just hang in there and I am sure he will come back, if not, then, as much as it might hurt, move on.

As far as the depression goes, I kind of agree with you on the not being alone part. I have bipolar and it isn't good for me to be alone and by myself within my own thoughts. I've learned to control it though to the point that I almost never feel depressed, however; for those moments I do, I am glad I have my mate to help me through it. Most people whom have depression will never admit that being alone in those times is not good for them (source: 20 years of therapy, which happily ended over 8 years ago).

Now, as far as games and other stuff goes, if you ever need someone to talk to, you can add me through PSN (PM me for it). I love to talk about video games.
Shokuji
6 years, 9 months ago
I'm not sure if you should be depressed about this, honestly. If he's going to throw away your friendship over something that small.. you know what I mean? Sounds like he was perhaps very high maintenance or just really quirky. Either way it's hard to keep those types as friends. I know it hurts a bit since it's over (or so it seems), but this will give you more time with other friends that aren't as hard to get along with or ones you don't have to walk around on egg shells with. Either way, hope you feel better, man.
Raukue
6 years, 9 months ago
We always got along fine, were similar in ways. I just hope he does come to and realize that I was trying to help him before I got upset like I did. He might see that... what he might not see is that I missed him and missed talking to him about such things, so when he was back I went off talking about what I been wanting to for the past few days with him... but that just made him put blame on me for spoiling a game for him, which I didn't at all, it is more like he just didn't wanna hear anything, even if he knows it already, rather than spoiler... hmm.
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