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Sev

No offense intended...

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But fuck all of you, every single one of you. XD

Ok, now that is out of the way, let me explain. That is in no way meant offense or attacks at anyone. As most people on my friends list i talk to often knows, among many others who I hardly talk to or just met, had issues with species, and changed a lot. And why? I cared too much about opinions, and people wanting me to be species, implanting their wants on me, my wanting to make me what they want. Few know about the drama I dealt with that drove me from kangaroo really.

Simply put, all those people that controlled me, and most of all, the voices in my head, telling me to become this, or go that, fuck you, in the nicest way possible. XD I deal with temptation too much with that, cause of some issues and the voices in my head (got Schizophrenia and https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_dis... formerly known as 'multiple-personality disorder, the DID is professionally diagnosed by a psych.) looking at a species I liked, telling me, how I should be it, focusing on an aspect and forcing me though suggestion to do it. And when lost and confused, I'd ask people for help, suggestions, caught in a catch 22, I listen, they control my species, I ignore suggestion, I feel lost, and am still controlled.

Some people told me they don't care, or simply, said they didn't understand it, why it's so hard. Really, I can blame it on my mental issues all I want, but really, it's more my weak will at the times. So frankly, fuck everyone, even myself, I'm going to go with what I want. And what I want, is what I wanted years ago, before many people pressured and guilted me back to ferret, the same thing that tops my list as all time favorite and special animal to me from the first time I saw one in RL in my own back yard. I am going otter, and I have https://www.furaffinity.net/user/renardfoxx (didn't know how to put the FA account link here) to thank for it, for, well, frankly, making me feel bad and stupid, like an idiot, every time I had issues with species and would ask me, why the big deal, just be what you want and tell other people to just shut the fuck up and let me be me.

And more so, thanks to him for showing me https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6452954/ which, the hotness of it, reminded me of otter and made me question, why i didn't go otter and stay with it since I am so obsessed with them. Which, usual to him, he said "I'll never be able to understand why the species thing is such a big deal |3" and like usual, made me feel bad, but got me thinking, why don't I? Didn't take a lot of thinking to think of everyone that told me I wasn't ottery enough, or not an otter, how otter didn't fit me, or didn't like otter as much so went to their species and imposed it on me.

You all can laugh at me if/when I change from this, like I know everyone expects me to, but frankly, fuck everyone that imposes their own wants on me with no regrets, and thank you to the people that understand or tried to anyway, cause this is what I want really well, to be an otter, and enjoy it and not worry about pleasing people.
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Added: 7 years, 2 months ago
 
Stumpycoon
7 years, 2 months ago
You've been hunting for a species that fits for as long as i have known you.  I'm not about to wig-out because you've taken another step in your path.
Sev
Sev
7 years, 2 months ago
Heh, yeah, well, really, it's a step for me. I think, i'll make a less 'offensive' journal soon, stating, why, to me, otter is such a major thing and important to me.
pengothylacine
7 years, 2 months ago
The only thing I want, is for you to find a 'sona that works for you. A fursona is an intensely personal choice, and no one should ever try to dictate to you what you should or should not be. We like like you because of who you are, not because of any particular species. You could pick a 20 foot tall, seven armed, three tailed xenomorph, and we'd still like you. Friends who only like you because you're a Roo, or a Ferret, aren't true friends. And like you said, fuck anyone who says otherwise ^^
Sev
Sev
7 years, 2 months ago
That is what I am going for, to me, fursona is really important, something to truly personify myself as. But I have some people, that rather me be like, whatever they want, and press the matter. I know of one person in particular, so obsessed with TF, I'm not in the mood to be a 15 foot tall, muscular 5 foot long dicked skunk/otter/hyena/whatever, he stops talking to me till the next time he wants to RP. I tried to hard to make friends and find some person to love me, that I flip-flopped around species to species to make other people happy, to try to make them like me. Then when they say "just be a shapeshifter" or "just be a ditto LOL!" it really pissed me off and hurt me, cause that is lazy, and even then, what is the base form I have? I'd be no better than Envy from the first Full Metal Alchemist, able to change shape, be other people, do whatever he wanted, but, in the end, I can't remember what I really was, to know who I truly am under it all. In the end, all others are just characters, and how do I find which one is me and which ones are just there to be used for stories/art for my own wants.
Krechevskoy
7 years, 2 months ago
Otters can fuck me in whatever way they want! <3
Sev
Sev
7 years, 2 months ago
Teehee, well maybe if you weren't so busy all the time and never replying to messages, they would. >;P
Charn
7 years, 2 months ago
I don't care what species you are. *grabs pruning shears*
Sev
Sev
7 years, 1 month ago
Teehee, I bet *gropes your butt and licks your nose*
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