I'm currently waiting for a few books a friend is sending me on how to draw certain characters. While I plan to put my own spin on those characters once I restart the art for "Dragon Story" I will continue to write the story and work on the story for it. I may later make changes to the pictures already there later on as well. This is a learning experience for me as well as a new way for me to tell a story so its going to take a bit of time to do it right. My goal is to make something unique and interesting which will in the end really draw an audience. Again I will say I am an artist, when it comes to writing, I'm not much of an artist when it comes to drawing pictures so bare with me as I explore an art on a graphic tablet I'm not used to using. All of my artistic drawings until recently have all been by hand on paper so drawing with a graphic tablet is a whole new experience for me. While I have Dragon Story fully planned out I want to give it my very best so those who are interested in it keep in mind that I have committed to doing it with technology I barely understand how to use. i am teaching myself how to do this at every step as I go along. I'm a little raw on the details of how to draw a few of the things using a graphic tablet so the idea and formulation is entirely new to me. My main for of art up until now which I have shared is only my writing. This experiment is an attempt to enlarge the bonds I set on my artistic side and maybe learn more about myself while searching for that artistic flair I was always scared to let others see in me. I've been hiding so much of myself from others over the years. This is my attempt to become something more and to fully release my hidden artist that I know is there. I can see so much in other people's work. I understand the styles and the essence of how things are done. When I was younger I could even do a great deal of them but I was always driven away from art by others. For me its time to break that cycle others imposed and work on releasing those old chains from my heart. the aspect scares me more than anything else. But, I learned one thing long ago, it was something important that I've been letting control me and I have to finally put to rest. You can't live in fear. I've always lived in fear. I fear how my work in writing is looked at by others. I fear to share my poetry because of how often in the past it led to hurt. I fear to let others see my paintings I keep hidden away. I also fear to let others see my photos and films I take of wildlife when and where I can. I am an underground artist hiding out in a dark room. Its finally time to remove my constraints, open my windows, and let in the light. This will be an uphill battle for me all the way. I wouldn't mind a prayer here and there for me, I'll admit I'm going to need it. Keep watching as I work to release that part I've kept only to myself for the last 34 years of my life and finally release my hidden truth.
7 years, 7 months ago
06 Sep 2011 09:06 CEST