wrote for me in March 2009, before he blocked me. It bears repeating, because some furs still don't understand what really happened to me. In minute detail, this is the real story before I enlisted in the U.S. Army. I will remove this post if there's any static.
Hello. Thank you for finally letting me speak my case. I had a friend help me prepare this letter to you, to check for accuracy and help me say what I need for you to hear because obviously, I did not do well enough defending myself on my own so far. This is the truth of my situation, and not the twisted version you heard and banned me over.
I resigned from my job Friday June 6, 2008, and got an amount of severance pay, which I have tried to not draw from as much as possible.
Kits5786 paid for my plane ticket to move in with Anailaigh and Aurcowolf in Arizona. I have since paid Kits5786 back IN FULL and do not owe him any money. Anailaigh's PayPal was used during this time because I did not have an account. She bought me a ticket for much less than what was raised and then she pocketed the difference, as well as keeping other donations that were made to help me during that time before I got my own PayPal account.
I was with them for three weeks, maybe a little more, during which time I paid them $500, not counting the donations she pocketed from people trying to help me. ANY talk of me leeching off people I was living with has come only from Anailaigh and Aurcowolf, even though Anailaigh had pocketed donations she'd collected in my name and lied to me about the cost of the plane ticket. They were both jobless at the time, and apparently had expected me to pay their bills with my severance money. When I only paid my fair share of $500, that was when they started accusing me of not paying bills. Because I wasn't paying ALL of THEIR bills.
When I left them, I was with my father for only a few days, and then living with my mother since mid-August. I was helping my mother with half her rent while I was there, as well as food and other needs. When my money ran out, she had no more patience and turned me out. As far as my relationship with my parents is concerned, THAT is something personal and private, and NOT involving this community at all, so I do not believe using that against me in this ban is appropriate.
I then lived in a hotel until my credit cards ran out, and am now in a homeless shelter.
I have been looking for work all this time. I am not the only person who is having trouble finding work due to the economy.
The only point where anyone can accuse me of being a leech is with Anailaigh and Aurcowolf, when Anailaigh pocketed donations SHE gathered in my name and I was lied to about it at the time. They are the only ones who could accuse me of leeching, and they are lying. I paid $500 in the three weeks I was with them, and they were threatening me with eviction the entire time to try and force me to use my severance money to pay off THEIR debt.
According to Yak, you listened to the trolls who flamed me from WTF-FA and lulz.net as evidence of my "reputation." Those people were not involved and do not know anything other than the lies and rumors and hate started by Anailaigh and Aurcowolf. That kind of thing is what those places are BUILT for and I was saddened to hear from Yak that the flames of trolls and haters were the "evidence" of my "reputation."
Yes, I have bought commissions while I have been struggling, because it is horribly depressing being in this situation and without SOMETHING to occasionally cheer me up, I would not be able to keep dealing with things. I know now how that LOOKS to people who are not willing to look beyond just the surface, just like people have accused you of using FA donations on personal commissions just because you get a lot of commissions while also asking people for money for FA. Even though it is obvious that is just lies, rumor, and jealousy. But if those people and their lies are going to get me banned from this community, then from this point I will just have to not allow myself to have what is one of the few bits of happiness I get now and then, and simply deal with my problems.
Even if what you heard about me was true, there are too many people who do even worse than the lies said I did, and unless you're going to ban all of them too, then banning me is unfair and wrong. I hope that with hearing the truth of my situation, you can understand why it was a mistake. I don't blame you so much as the people who gave you false information, and even if you don't make a public apology to undo the damage to my reputation your journal caused, I just hope you will at least let me back onto FA so I can try and defend my reputation myself.