Well, I lost what I had typed up. Time to nutshell everything.
I woke up with the answer to my loneliness on my tip of my tongue, just between the edge of dreaming and awareness: I'm living vicariously through my art, I need to live vicariously through other things too, like RPG and start setting up those online campaigns of Bliss Stage or Apocalypse World to meet weekly in chat, rain or shine, as well as meeting my friends out in the Real World.
I took a Yoga class yesterday and it was pretty good. They are coming at it from a different approach. I was coming from the most esoteric path: raja yoga or Taoyin. It was mainly Bhakti and very relaxed stretching and a long cooldown period. It was that cooldown period that blew all my channels open with prana, and I should have realized it was a ticking timebomb until my kundalini rose if I didn't do my daily meditation.
At some point, my body decides that I'm going whether I want to or not, whatever I'm currently doing be damned. Basically, kundalini is described as normally dormant energy and you visualize it as a serpent coiled at the base of the spine 3.5 times, uncoiling to ascend at the crown "points" or chakras. The class costs $13 to drop in, $10 if you pay in advance. For the exercise alone and the company, it was not a bad price. I also bought a lavender scent pillow.
Some people do yoga without the philosophy and spirituality. I'm not one of them, though I won't belabor the point here.
Other things I'm looking into is renting a flute and getting private lessons. I noticed that I'm not the only freelance person that's had to lower their prices in order to get any business at all... it's kind of saddening, it's kind of humbling, to see that no one makes any money because no one spends any money anymore. Moving on.
The final thing is that on Thursdays, my previous art professor offers painting classes at the church for $12 a class. There's nothing that says I have to do everything at once, but I like having options and I like being active in doing something to improve myself if it gets me motivated, healthy, sane, productive, challenges me or all the above.
I also checked out Windows 7 Simplified and The Hemlock Cup at the Polk State College. The last one is a book on Socrates by a historian. That ought to be fun to read.
Here's some audio narration of a mythological nature that has absolutely nothing to do with anything: