IT'S JUNE, COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN! Fuck the drama, I'm freelancing no matter what. You want a pencil sketch, you get it for 5-10$ and I'll be doing them in mass. Preferably, I do clean (in the break room) but I can do any kind of commission in the library.
First things first: My PayPal is frozen. I'm working on it. It freaked out when I logged in from Ohio, and I'm never home long enough to use the house phone to fix it, you know? So I'll be figuring out how AlertPay and Amazon and Google Checkout works, but in the meantime, this is snailmail. I'll be purchasing business envelopes to mail the sketch, and you mail me a money order or cash, pretty much. If the package doesn't arrive, I'll digitally finish the sketch instead to make up for it. If your money doesn't arrive, you end up being my new beta-tester on Bliss Stage and giving reviews on Friendships is Magic animations for a reasonable amount of time and pay me back by working it off. (laugh)
If you want me to reference a fan character or it's fanart, I will need to take the price up by 5$ because I have to print that shit out and drag it around with me, no hard feelings meant but having a folder of printed porn is awkward to hide and explain. The kind of commissions I want, clean, ecchi, or hentai are as follows: give me a paragraph I can write down in my notebook and let me just "do my thing." It might be 2-3 concept sketches before you and I find something we both like, those are free.
Okay, personal matters:
The ride home was actually very quiet but that probably had to do with me passing out in a sickened stupor in the backseat and drooling onto my jacket until my little sister nudged me and said "We're home!" and then I stayed up, took care of business and friends on my PC until midnight, and went to bed.
I called out sick from work (I caught Ariamaki's flu and so did Elliott =( Funny, I used protection for the normal stuff but I forgot about the regular contagions... oh, well, not the first time I've had a cold of coughing, headaches, runny nose, and general miserableness) and dealt with some loldrama on Bliss Stage and I'm currently in the Computing center of my college campus because my mother reacted predictably when Kaitlyn was not around to witness her raging.
I guess I'll just break it down into points, I don't feel like rambling on so much:
1) My mom is abusive, no questions asked. I pretty much pulled out my cell-phone and said, "Either you let me leave and get out of my face or I call the police" not because I was threatening her but because I am very ill, exhausted, and trying to recover and did NOT need a fight when I was on a personal call... not that she cared. So, yeah, she blew up more, I ignored it and got the hell out and went to work.
2) On the way home from airport, out of the blue, Kaitlyn says: "Am I more of a little boy than a little girl?" and I overrode my mother's rampant homophobia and said: "You are whoever you feel you are on the inside. You know how all those things tell you not to judge a book by its cover? You write your own pages, Katie." and my mom got in lots of nice little jibes today like "You're a rotten daughter" and "Don't tell my daughter she's gay" and "look at you, you're 165 lbs, you're too out of shape and unhealthy to live by yourself without a car and get around by walking and biking" (wrong, I lost 10 just in the last month! GO ME!! =D) and my favorite one: "I don't depend on you to provide for me!" Well, I said some things I didn't mean to, but it boils down to what she wouldn't let me finish saying: "I love you, Mom, this is your birthday and I wanted to make it special, but you're still treating me like a child. You're a good person, but you do some very very bad things."
She said to me: "I can have YOU arrested and Baker Acted!" and I laughed in her face. "You already tried that once, didn't work out so well that time either, did it?" and she paled a little. "You'll lose your job!" she said, and I was like, "Why do you think I'm going to my supervisor right now to document this kind of thing?" and she finally stepped back and let me leave the house at that point. Love is my weapon... I just didn't want to wield it that way, but she didn't give me much choice. I pretty much stated, "I have my medications on me and I've been taking them, you can't touch me. Oh, and I'll be scheduling an appointment with my therapist... not to please you but because if you're not going to get help, it's not going to stop me from getting mine."
3) Fuck her interference, I'm going to buy a second USB drive (left mine in California ;_;) and put a portable version of Flash on it JUST to do Friendship is Magic fanimation and Bliss Stage vectors on the go. Failing that, Paint Tool SAI and ArtRage will do nicely. Basically, I just need to be able to do art away from home and it involves a lot of sketchpads, pencils, pens, erasers, pencil sharpeners, my work scanners, tracing paper, watercolour, crayons, colored pencils, and me buying a new laptop very soon. My new cellphone definitely helped.
In short, the vacation went better than expected and the arrival home went exactly as planned because my mother is a predictable abuser. :| I was ready to back down and submit, but standing in the door way so I can't take my walk to cool off and try to force a "genuine apology" out of me? Nope. I love completely and wholeheartedly and if that means telling her that I love her so much that she's killing me, then that's what I have to say.