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Kickinthehead

Living life as an aspie

So lets start out by summing up aspie in a summary:

An aspie is one who has Asperger's Syndrome, which is believed to be part of the autism spectrum. Aspies, while being quite gifted in some areas, have social, emotional, and sensory integration difficulties, among others. Aspie is an affectionate term, and is not meant as a put down.

 Its hard living as some one with AS. But it makes it ten times worse when you have to additional "disorders" In addition to AS I have been diagnosed as bipolar 2 and suffer from PTSD ( most commonly seen in warfighters) and is usually followed by hallucinations, psychological reactions to sounds and sights, nightmares, and depression. In my case I developed it because of severe abuse. Compound this with AS and it makes for a hell of a time functioning normally.

I notice a lot of things I do. I lack empathy in most cases. I have awkward social interactions and no real social ques indicator. I lack boundaries. I have an innate fascination with weapons and firearms. Im prone to night terrors. I tend to triple check the premises of my house to make sure it is locked and secured. I have to make sure my full frame Beretta in the nightstand, my Ruger is in its specially designed holster bolted on my bed frame, and my ka-bar is in its sheath bolted to the back of the bed. ( Paranoia? No but a feeling of safety so I can sleep) I don't go out at all and I don't make friends.

Its hard feeling completely alien everywhere you go but I manage. That is what its like living with this.
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Added: 5 years, 8 months ago
 
NationaLion
5 years, 8 months ago
I was almost diagnosed with AS. My brother has always had it very bad, and he has bipolar disorder as well. I disobeyed doctors' orders and went off my medicine completely, lowering the dose over a few weeks. Hardest few months of my life coming down, but I feel better without them now, it just takes a little willpower to make it through.

Whatever you choose to do, AS people are some of the nicest people I've ever known. They don't talk much, but when you find a good friend you'll really open up. Have you ever been to a gun club or anything?
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
I have to take meds. It helps me a lot.

And yes I actually was just at one over the weekend. I got to shoot a prototype 12G shotgun. Finally got my hands on an AK. Shot a .270 revolver. It was a lot of fun :)
NationaLion
5 years, 8 months ago
Hehe, don't buy any more commie guns. AKs are for terrorists. But American. :3
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
fuck that. ill get what ever gun i want. i like things that go bang
phydoux
5 years, 8 months ago
i was diagnosed with PDD (pervaisive development disorder) its a huge umbrella of things, including aspurgers as well as ADD, ADHD, tourettes etc.
so i kinda know where you are coming from
phydoux
5 years, 8 months ago
i guess it's a fancy way of saying "we know something is wrong with you, but we don't know what exactly"
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
I think doctors can never definitively say whats wrong. Only take a educated random ass guess
phydoux
5 years, 8 months ago
XD we gotta get some gaming on xbox going sometime
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
lol i tried but we dont have matching games
phydoux
5 years, 8 months ago
I know! We should conspire to buy one the same
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
ive got BF4 and AC4 coming out next week :P
phydoux
5 years, 8 months ago
I really dont play shooters thouh :(
Kickinthehead
5 years, 8 months ago
hmm wht else then?
MisterBlacksTwin
5 years, 7 months ago
I have as, its not a real diagnosis anymore because it got pulled from the dsm, but its no fun. Me I'm incredible intelligent but lack the ability to do many things because pile on anxiety with everything and I'm usually home o.o;
Kickinthehead
5 years, 7 months ago
And that is when you just gotta get out. Its hard but it will never get better or easier until you over come it
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