So lets start out by summing up aspie in a summary:
An aspie is one who has Asperger's Syndrome, which is believed to be part of the autism spectrum. Aspies, while being quite gifted in some areas, have social, emotional, and sensory integration difficulties, among others. Aspie is an affectionate term, and is not meant as a put down.
Its hard living as some one with AS. But it makes it ten times worse when you have to additional "disorders" In addition to AS I have been diagnosed as bipolar 2 and suffer from PTSD ( most commonly seen in warfighters) and is usually followed by hallucinations, psychological reactions to sounds and sights, nightmares, and depression. In my case I developed it because of severe abuse. Compound this with AS and it makes for a hell of a time functioning normally.
I notice a lot of things I do. I lack empathy in most cases. I have awkward social interactions and no real social ques indicator. I lack boundaries. I have an innate fascination with weapons and firearms. Im prone to night terrors. I tend to triple check the premises of my house to make sure it is locked and secured. I have to make sure my full frame Beretta in the nightstand, my Ruger is in its specially designed holster bolted on my bed frame, and my ka-bar is in its sheath bolted to the back of the bed. ( Paranoia? No but a feeling of safety so I can sleep) I don't go out at all and I don't make friends.
Its hard feeling completely alien everywhere you go but I manage. That is what its like living with this.
5 years, 8 months ago
22 Oct 2013 05:07 CEST