So, I have been trying my best to find a job and stuff so I can refund folks. My anxiety has taken its hold on me. I shake constantly but I wont give up Im crying as I write this because of my Dad. I really miss him. I hold his coat alot, it still smells like him. I miss his hugs, ALOT. I am not only gonna refund people for thier sake, but for His. I wanna make my Dad proud.
We were the best of friends. I got a birthday card from my mom and it said "YOU ARE LOVED" signed, Mom. It means SO much. Its just really hard getting my first card that says only from my mom. I miss my dads signature too. I really think I need counseling. i just...cry.
Dad, if you are somewhere out there know this, I will live my life making you proud, and im sorry for anything I have done wrong. I will do my best to call mom and make sure she is ok, too. I love you, with every little sliver and ounce of my heart and spirit.
5 years, 2 months ago
22 Sep 2013 04:15 CEST